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Lately I’ve been stuck in fan fiction writing. I haven’t worked on my aliens novel or my ‘romance’ novel.

Am I just lazy? Is it writer’s block? No, its’ the fan fiction. It sucked me in good and tight, again. See I started writing a Harry Potter fanfiction in 2004 when I read the books for the first time. The books were so good, I loved the vasst quantity of characters and possibilites, that it sparked an inevitable creativity in me, and so I started my first official fan fiction. Which was supposed to be a short story, something fun between a made up ravenclaw student and draco malfoy. Really, it wasn’t supposed to go anywhere, but go it did. 447 pages later, I had a full novel on my hands, and immediately began on a sequel. In the sequel, Draco and Lucius kidnap my made up ravenclaw. Unfortunately the sequel didn’t make it very far, because she was just stuck in the malfoy manor for a whole year. I know what happens the entire way, but I lost interest in writing it after about 47 pages.

Then I began on the third in the series…. lol. The series that was only supposed to be a fun side project. Once again, the third one was begun because I felt like writing a bit, having some fun with Voldemort and death eaters. Once again, in the spirit of the first book, I have been swept away by it and I can’t stop!

Even if I could stop, I wouldn’t want to. My only regret is that I have much more fun writing this fan fiction than I ever have writing my real books. :( How I rationalize that to my brain is by saying “writing a fan fiction, where you can play with someone else’s characters, is a very good creative exercise.” Which I find to be true, to an extent. I explore my descriptions better, I make more daring leaps with plots and characters. However, in the end, I am only giving myself an excuse to do what I want.