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Life hasn’t been easy lately. I realized after I depended so much on my ex-boyfriend that without him I don’t have anyone close to me. Before I depended on him it was easy to be alone, without the recent memory of having anyone close. Now I feel naked, and consumed by solitude.

In times past if any conflict should come up between me and a friend of mine, I would much rather not talk to them anymore than try to fix the problem. Mostly out of cowardice, I can admit that. I don’t feel comfortable facing someone who I’ve had problems with, I would rather go meet someone to replace them. I got so good at replacing people that I realized I can’t keep a friend past a few months, not unless they make me keep them, which doesn’t happen often.

Which is why I’m left with few friends. I believe that horrible situations aren’t cosmic punishments, but rather lessons to be learned. It’s slow giong at the moment, trying to rekindle broken friendships, and let people in as well as learn that discomfort and conflict are fixable, if I can man up to the job. Rather than keep all my eggs in one basket, and depend on a single person, I’m stretching myself out to many friends, hoping that it will broaden my horizons.

Prompt:

Which is more important- the journey or the destination?. Some believe that our entire purpose is a means to an end, and that is how we are doomed to spend our life. When you make yourself miserable in the present, say by working long hours, towards a better future, isn’t that a justifiable means to an end? But the journeys take time, and the destinations we come to are brief. Do you believe in living for the end, or living for the now?

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